| I HATE going away!!! |
[Aug. 16th, 2006|06:47 pm] |
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Well It's been a while since I have been back here but i'm stressed to the MAX!!! I'm moving to Florida tomorrow for FIVE MONTHS and I'm going all by MYSELF!!! I am SCARED SHITLESS!!! I don't know what i'm going to do....just when i'm enjoying how things are going I get tossed into another situation but this one I brought upon myself! oh well I hope all is well.... TO all of the people that I didn't get to give a hug or a kiss goodbye I hope you know that I really wanted too but everything is just CRAZY right now...so when I come back I will definately be giving you all a CALL!!
GOOD BYE MICHIGAN!!!!! I will MISS YOU!! and GOODBYE AKK OF MY FRIENDS AND FAMILY!! I LOVE YOU ALL!!!
keep in touch! |
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| What a year!! |
[May. 1st, 2006|02:01 pm] |
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OMG!! I can't believe that i am done with my first year of COLLEGE!! I didn't think i would make it but I DID!!! it has been one of my most trying and difficult years that i could ever imagine! I had to grow up a lot! I have experienced things that NO ONE should have to. It has definitely put my life into perspective. It's time for me to grow up and it scares me to DEATH! I never thought that this time would come so soon or that it would come about the way that it did...I have found that there are people that i can trust and people that i cant and it sux to know that there are people out there who you have done so much for and turn around and not even care for you or your feelings. I'm not going to miss OU but on the other hang I am.it feels good to be away from the people that all they do is upset me...I feel like I am getting a fresh start...but it sux, I miss the people who were there for me and wouldn't just step aside and watch..and would do something!! I'm going to MISS the people who knew how to make me laugh and the ones that I know I can always trust.......you know who you are and you know who you are NOT!!! I will NEVER forgive YOU!!! you know who you are, but you may be to blind to see it!! It hurts to find out who you really are...and yet it doesn't...you have ruined my life for the time being but soon I will never have to see, or hear your pitiful annoying wine that you call a voice again...I WILL be HAPPY...that will happen WITHOUT YOU!!! I FUCKING HATE YOU CARLY!!! i know one day you will see what you have done and i hope that you will never forget it..you ARE a HORRIBLE person!! One day you will realize that the world doesn't revolve around you and it never has and it never will!!
I will be able to move on but it will take time and patience! |
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| O MY!!! |
[Nov. 22nd, 2005|08:57 pm] |
Well i was really bored and i haven't been on this in a while so i thought i would update!!! lately my life hasn't been the best...ever since the last entry A LOT of shit has gone down....I got a speeding ticket for going 15 over....my car got broken into and the radio got torn out and my back seat ripped off the hinges....while on my way back from getting my window fixed my car died and i got hit on by 2 foriegn guys....all this happened in a week! but as of right now i am lost. i don't know what i'm going to do with my life....i hate it here at oakland and haven't met anyone...i hate going and walking around by myself....it seems like i have no one there for me....i jus reall dunno what to do...i cry myself to sleep some nights...i miss my classes....i feel worthless...life sux at the moment...i dunno what to do with my roomates and my floor...i love em to death but they are getting on my nerves....geeze i feel like i need a break..i'm thinking about taking a semester off and figuring shit out...i would still take the music courses but i would move home get a job and get my life together....but that is where another situation comes in....i don't wanna move home...i like being on my own...i don't wanna go back home and contantly be fighting with my mom....o my my my.......i'm just sooo confused right now!
ok well i'm gonna stop with the borng jibber jabber....i'm gonna go watch the american music awards and then do laundry!
thats all for now! THANKSGIVING IS THURSDAY!!! |
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| OHHH MY GOODNESSS!!!!!!! |
[Sep. 22nd, 2005|05:37 pm] |
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o my what a night last night....i had soooo much fun hanging with leah, nick, and ryan........it was a blast!!! BEER PONG IN A MUST!!! hahaha well at least with smirnoff!! but yeah took some funny pictures and it was a good time....i hope to do it again VERY soon..... |
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| o my FUCKING LORD!!!!!!!! |
[Sep. 21st, 2005|03:48 am] |
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DAMNIT ALL......i'm just sitting here looking online and all of a sudden i hear my suite mate just going off at the end of the hall way.....she is ready to get in a fight with some other people...i dunno all i heard is.."i ain't no mutha fuckin bitch" what the hell........ |
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| WHAT IS GOING ON HERE!?!?!?!?! |
[Sep. 21st, 2005|03:35 am] |
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WHAT THE HELL??? it is like 3:35 in the morning and i got kicked outta my room.....my roomate wanted some alone time.....i have no problem with that at all..but I HAVE A CLASS AT 9:20 IN THE MORNING TOMORROW..and my back hurts like no other...i have such a long day tomorrow and i am not looking foreward to it.....ok soory but i'm crappy, tired , and don't feel good.....and i'm lonely cuz i'm here all by myself.
i'm done!! |
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| well what do we have here??? |
[Sep. 20th, 2005|09:01 pm] |
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OMG!!!! what a day....it didn't start to bad until i had to go to a chiropractor today to check out my back. i had to drive all the way out to novi from school....i was stuck in traffic and i got there late..O JOY!!! then i finally get there and she takes x-rays and starts "adjusting" and then tells me that i have to come back tomorrow...I AM SO MAD!!! she said that i have and i quote "a really badly badly badly sprained back!" OOO SO THATS WHY MY BACK HAS BEEN HURTING LIKE NO OTHER!! tell me the obvious y don't ya!!! i hate that i have to drive all they way back..i just put in $30 of gas in my car....i missed my class today and i missed class yesterday....i'm sooo frustrated with everything...O and to top it off i like on the 8th floor my back is fucked up and the elevator is BROKEN!!! GOOD LORD PEOPLE....WHY!!! o and i'm lonely and what to find someone right for me...i want to meet new people...i've already met some really cool ones but yeah......i miss the lack of responsibility that high school had to offer.......COLLEGE IS SOOOO HARD!!!! i hate growing up!!
thats all for me what a fucked up day!!! |
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